When I woke up I wasn’t in my room then I remembered seeing Lucas’s shocked eyes before passing out I was in his room. My head still hurt from Kalebs internal talk. I quickly got off the bed rubbing my head “go away” I said under my breath telling my head ache to go away which was insane to do I thought. “Why do you want us to go away?” Matt asked me his voice filled with concern. I quickly looked around the room Kerry Matt and Lucas were all in the room looking very tensed. “Sorry I was talking to myself. What’s wrong with you guys? You all look awful” They really did.
“We’re just worried about you. What happened to you? When you woke up from your nap you could barely move and speak. It freaked me out so I bought you to Matt and Lucas but you passed out on me” Kerry spoke. The feeling of not being able to talk or move didn’t feel very nice, it was like being chocked and defenceless. “I just had a really bad headache but don’t worry its gone now” I replied.
“Are you sure it was just a headache?” Matt asked me.
I looked at him confused “Yeah what else could it be? I’m not sick or anything. The headache was really painful” I replied. I didn’t want to tell them about Kaleb. I didn’t know if he was real or just my imagination. No point stressing them out if it’s just my over active mind playing tricks on me. Plus it’s not logical, no one can talk to people directly through thoughts.
“Kerry heard you say Kalebs name just before she bought you to our room” Lucas stated to me.
I didn’t answer him I tried to think of an excuse but couldn’t come up with anything. I started to walk towards the door but Matt blocked my path, stupid vampire speed. “You’re hiding something” Matt stated. If they knew so much about me why ask me anything. I rolled my eyes at him and tried to push him out of the way, he didn’t budge he was stuck to the floor like glue.
“You’re hiding something” Matt repeated again this time more forcefully. I was contemplating should I tell them should I not, I was weighing more to not telling them. They would think I was insane, I mean I thought I was insane!
“Okay Ruka I have had enough just tell me what you’re hiding. I promise not to yell, freak out, and get angry. I’ll just act normal. Now tell me what you’re hiding” Matt demanded.
Lucas spun me around by my arm holding it gently, his eyes were soft and caring. All of a sudden images of Lucas swept across my eyes, there were so many. Images of him holding me in his arms, Lucas smiling and laughing,  Lucas and me holding hands staring into each others eyes, Lucas giving me a rose, Me hugging Lucas. All the images were beautiful it showed me a side of Lucas I hadn’t seen he looked caring, compassionate, loving, romantic, strong, sensitive, emotional and hurt. Then I saw one image it was one where Kaleb had me in his arms Lucas looked extremely hurt, like he had failed to save me in my pass life. I hate the feeling that image gave me I felt nauseated and sorrow for Lucas. Lucas tugged my arm it got me out of my world wind of past memory images. He looked me in the eye and said “I also know your hiding something Ruka I thought when you felt ready to tell me you would but now I can’t wait. I feel what you are hiding is what is causing you to get sick. Just tell us we won’t get angry or think any less of you. We love you we won’t hurt you” I held on to his eyes. I couldn’t help myself all those images filled me with emotion I wanted to be close to Lucas, his face looked so sad I wanted to fill him with happiness he deserved it. He had helped both my sister and brother through the transition of becoming a vampire. Lucas had no one. I had a brother and a sister he had a brother who was his enemy. I didn’t answer him instead what I did shocked me a little but when I did it, it felt right. I hugged him tighter and started to cry. Both of Lucas hands were around me in an instant rubbing my back. The images filled me with jealously I wished my life I had with Lucas was the life I had right now. I looked so happy with Lucas, and Lucas looked happy with me. I felt a hand pat my head “Lucas is right Ruka we won’t think any less of you we love you” Kerry said trying to assure me. After a few minutes I pulled away hesitantly from Lucas he released me slowly. I looked at his top which now carried by tears “I’m sorry” I said quietly looking at Lucas and then to his shirt. He gave me a little smile then wiped the stray tears from my face, I didn’t stop him I liked the feel of his touch. “Tell us” Lucas said slowly. “We know it has something to do with Kaleb” Matt stated again but his voice softened. He was still blocking the door. I slumped down to a sitting position on the floor, Kerry sat in front of me holding my hands for comfort.
“The person who attacked us… attacked us at the airport… who was it?” I asked Matt keeping my eyes glued to the wooden floors. If I heard the answer was yes I would tell them, if it was no then I was insane.
“That was…” Matt didn’t finish. There was silence in the room and then Lucas looked at Kerry, Kerry got up and Lucas replaced her hands with his. “The person you saw” Lucas began but was interrupted by Matt “Don’t tell her!” he yelled at Lucas. “It doesn’t matter if I don’t tell her. It’s obvious from her face she knows who attacked her. Matt calm down” Lucas spoke back to Matt more calmly than Matt had spoken to him. Kerry got up and moved closer to Matt stroking his arms trying to calm him down. “It was Kaleb” Lucas answered my question I ripped my eyes away from Matt to Lucas. My heart started to beat extremely fast. Could Kaleb be speaking to me in my mind? I needed to know! The thought of him sickened me, after all the nightmares he had given me over the few months I had been here made me hate him even more than I did before. I still didn’t know how to tell them I’m hearing Kalebs disgusting, sickening voice in my insane head!
I felt really sick. All these months I had been hearing his voice in my head thinking it was just my imagination. I was wrong! I couldn’t breathe in the room, my thoughts were chocking the air out of me, I needed to get out of the room before I passed out. I started to get up slowly I knew my legs would fall underneath me if I did get up to fast. Lucas got up quicker than me and put his cold hands around my waist. I shivered I let him carry most of my weight I felt light headed after getting up even though I got up slowly. Lucas grabbed my cheek so that my head was facing him I could feel my face heat up. I stared into his loving eyes. “Don’t worry Kaleb can’t get you here. You’re safe” Lucas said in a gentle voice to me. I had to worry! Why was he still after me when he knew I didn’t even want him, even though I didn’t even know him in my new life? And I killed myself in my old life to get away from him! Didn’t Kaleb get the message? This really sucked. “I want to go home” I said to Lucas. “Ruka you can’t go home it isn’t safe. Sit on the bed you look pale” Matt said firmly. Lucas helped me to the bed, Matt continued to block the door with Kerry beside him with a worried face. Matt was different today I had never seen him so angry in one day the thought worried me. Was there something wrong with him? Did he have a problem? Was I the problem?
“Ruka why did you ask about Kaleb?” Kerry asked me. “I’m not safe here, I’ve never been safe here. Ever since we got here I’ve been sick untold times. This place sucks the energy from me. I want to go home” I said as firmly as I could. “I don’t care what you want Ruka! I want to know why you asked about Kaleb!” Matt basically screamed this at me. He had never done that before. Lucas was at Matts side at an instant trying to calm Matt down it wasn’t working. Why did I have to open my mouth about Kaleb! Stupid emotions made me speak up about my mental turmoil.
“Ruka you’re not leaving this room until you tell me!” Matt yelled again hurting my ear drums.
“If I tell you do I get to go home tomorrow?!” I screamed back. It felt good but it didn’t help my growing headache. “NO!” Matt yelled back. I was starting to feel happy that I didn’t tell Matt about Kalebs voice, if I did tell them I was hearing his voice who knows how they would have reacted. They may have kept me inside 24/7. I would have been on surveillance for the rest of my school days. Matt knew everything about me, there wasn’t one thing he didn’t know and I guess not knowing what I was hiding was bugging him even more. So much more that he was screaming at me!
“Why the hell not” I said in a firm but normal tone.
“I’m not discussing it. Now for the last time answer my question!” Matt demanded me for the nth  time I had lost count and I really didn’t care anymore. My life sucked! I was always told what to do and what not to do. It was controlled not by me but others around me. I never got to chose anything! People always used me, like me the first minute then hate me the next, I hate it. What’s the point in living if you can’t live? Right now I was suffocating! I hate it! The tears rolled out of my eyes I didn’t hold back I didn’t care anymore. Fate had abandoned me, whatever was going to happen in my life next was controlled by those around me. I wish I could get out of here.
“I could get you out of here Ruka” Kalebs voice was like silk in my head. He purposefully said it nicely just so that I would say yes.  I Screamed NO! In my head I could hear him laugh at my reaction. I wanted to get out of here but I wasn’t going to run into the arms of insane, obsessed Vampire.
I would be safe at home! If I never came to this stupid boarding school my life would have been a bit better. I wouldn’t have learned about vampires, I wouldn’t have one after me, I wouldn’t have voices in my head, I wouldn’t be around Matt all the time! But I wouldn’t have meet Lucas who I was starting to fall for bit my bit each day. I wouldn’t have meet Kerry who turned out to be my sister and the first true friend I had ever had. Life in Oakdale wasn’t any better I had friends that used me, only talked to me when they needed help with homework, people who gave me glares and the cold shoulder. But none of that bothered me. I loved being alone life was less complicated, less stressful and peaceful. I was going to answer Matts question then give him the silent treatment, it’s the only thing which I knew would bug him even more. I knew I wouldn’t be getting out of this room without telling the truth. Kerry and Lucas were both on Matts side there was no one to help me. Well that’s my crappy life.
I was still crying I whipped the tears away from my eyes and began to talk “you’ve never yelled at me before, I didn’t like it. You never let me do anything I want to do. You bought me to this school, I didn’t want to be here. You’re so controlling. Fine I don’t care anymore. Since I don’t have a brain when you tell me to jump I’ll jump, when you tell me to eat I’ll eat. When you tell me to do anything I’ll just do it. I can never decide anything that’s because I don’t have a choice. It’s always your choice, Mums choice, dad’s choice or someone else’s choice it’s never Rukas choice. You think I’m weak, you think I can’t make good choices is that why everyone decides for me? Does anyone ever ask what Ruka wants? No they don’t because they think they know me 100%. I hate the way I can’t go ten metres in this place without one of you following me. I thought I was safe here, so why not leave me alone?! You know before you bought me here to this school I was hearing Kalebs voice in my head, since we got to the boarding school I’ve heard his voice more. The last thing he said to me before I passed out today was he was coming to get me. There I’ve told you! Now let me out of your room and leave me alone” I spoke to Matt calmly trying not to show how angry I was, I knew it didn’t work. I got off the bed and walked towards the door which Matt was still blocking. He looked furious.  “WHY DIDN’T YOU TELL US?!” Matt boomed.