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Chapter 1:- Have you ever needed someone so bad
Have you ever needed someone so bad that they were the only thing you could think about? Well, I have that problem. You see I fell hard for this girl and now she is getting married, leaving me behind with nothing, but a broken heart.
It started when we were younger. We used to make mud pies after the rain. She was everything I wanted in a girl. I wanted to ask her out, but she ended up going back home to Phoenix with her mother. That was the first of many more heartbreaks.
Some years later, she came back to live with her father. I had a feeling she wouldn’t remember our time together, but as for me, how could I forget?
Things seemed to be alright with her as she went to school in Forks, as for me I attended school on the rez, which now I really wished I could have transferred.
My thoughts were always about her and I think it was getting on my dads nerves. Luckily, I found out that a gang from the school was coming down to First Beach. My heart began to race as the thoughts of Bella came to my mind. Would she be here with them or just shy away, staying in an empty house, since Charlie was always on duty.
“You’re Isabella Swan, aren’t you?” I asked sounding goofy, of course she was.
“Just Bella.” She sighed. Man, she has truly grown up since the last time I saw her. Okay so now what do I do?
“I’m Jacob Black; you bought my dad’s truck.” Real smooth, Jake.
“You’re Billy’s son. I probably should remember you.” Her smile would light up the night sky.
We continued to talk until it started to rain and she left. Not sure I understood why, but I felt that she was going to begin a relationship with one of the Cullen kids. Second heartbreak.
My father paid me money to deliver a message to Bella regarding her new boyfriend. I did it, only so I could get the last part to finish my car. I went to her prom to talk to her. There she was in his arms. I walked over to where they were and asked if I could cut in.
Of course Cullen was a little hesitant to do it, but Bella asked him please. He moved out of the way, but didn’t go too far away. He stood with his back against the wall watching hard.
I explained everything that my father told me and she was like alright. Somehow I knew things were not going to change. Come to find out Charlie didn’t like Cullen at all. Just before prom, Bella went back to her mother’s and had an accident. How the hell did Cullen know about it? Simple, she says he wanted to talk to her about getting back together and that he was sorry. I say bullshit.
So now Charlie is watching him a little more closely. I really wanted to step in and ask Bella out, but I knew that would not happen, not with Cullen in the picture.
Time went on and my heart wouldn’t stop hurting. I didn’t want to date anyone else; I thought she was the one. It turns out that fate always has its way in things. Just after summer break, something went wrong with Bella and Edward.
From what I was told, they went for a walk in the woods behind Bella’s house to talk. He said he was leaving and that she wasn’t going with him. He left her there in the middle of the woods, in the dark, alone. What kind of man would do that?
Sam Uley found her lying on the ground cold, wet, and mumbling about how he just left her. It broke my heart again to see her in that much pain.
Four long months of her life wasted as she just sat there waiting for his return. There was nothing I could do to help the situation.
Until she came to me one afternoon with two beat up bikes. She wanted me to fix them for us to have. This would be the start of something magical. I was finally going to get the girl in the end.
We were always together after school or on the weekends. Charlie said that I was making a big difference in her life. That is all that mattered to me, was helping her heal and maybe out of all of this, have that relationship I have always dreamed of.
We ended up going to the movies and became joined at the hip, which was alright with me. I was enjoying this time with her. She began to get color in her face again, her eyes held life in them and I knew it was because of me that was making this happen.
Things were working just fine between us, until I found out that I could phase into a huge russet color wolf. Then the stories were right, we were wolves and the Cullen’s were bloodsuckers. Nice.
She figured out what I was without me telling her. That was a relief. Until one night where she ended up breaking my heart again.
Bella decided to go cliff jumping without me and she almost drowned. I ended up saving her, but her pixie little bloodsucker thought she committed suicide. I took her back to her house where Alice was waiting for her.
She leaves with Alice to go to Italy to bring back that leech. I begged her not to go, but she was sure that if she went with Alice she would get him back. I was sick and tired of getting hurt.
I didn’t come around much after that. Nor did she. Which was fine with me. I knew she would go back to him. But still, she was supposed to be mine. I loved her more than him. I would never hurt her and she knew that.
“Don’t make me choose.” Was all she could say. Fine! The hell with it all. I was done with it. Never again would I let her hurt me like this. Boy was I wrong.
Some lunatic vampire went on a rampage and started to create a newborn army, sent to get revenge on the Cullen family. Their prize, Bella. I put up walls around my heart to keep it from getting crushed again, but of course, she has her way of manipulating it.
While all of the planning was going on down in the clearing, the couple was up in the mountains talking about their upcoming wedding. I lost it. That was the blow that broke the camels back for the last time.
Edward came to find me, said that she needed to explain things to me. What the hell was there to explain. I heard it all.
“Jacob, I’m begging you. Stay with me.” She said.
I couldn’t fight it anymore, she had to know how I truly felt, even if she marries him.
“I love you Bella. I have always loved you. I know you love me too, but you just don’t know it.” This was going to hurt me for the rest of my life. How was I going to live without my Bells?
She just stood there, looking at the ground. "I do love you Jacob, just not that way." She mumbled.
“If only that was enough.” I sighed.
“Will you kiss me, Jacob?”
“You’re bluffing.”
“Kiss me, Jacob. Kiss me and then come back to me.”
I wrapped her in my arms and softly gave her what she wanted.
“That should have been our first kiss, better later than never.” I ran off to help with the upcoming battle.
Again this didn’t help my already patched up heart. I could feel the threads coming apart at the seams.
Time passed and their wedding was here. I was still running, but turned around to try to keep my promise.
I gave her the best wedding present ever. Me. Although that was short lived when the subject of honeymoon came up. I blew it big time and had to be escorted out of the reception. How could she even think of trying to have a ‘normal’ honeymoon with a leech? If he bites her, the treaty is over. There will be a war.
I tried really hard to forget her. It was no use. She was branded in my brain. There was no life after her. Here I sat while she was off on her honeymoon with a vampire. Life was totally unfair.
I went on with my life knowing that there was no one for me. No matter how hard I tried to find love, there was none. Until…
The birth of Renesmee, the daughter of that leech and Bella. I watched the whole thing unfold. This baby was sucking the life out of the one I loved, but yet as soon as she was born, it hit me. Nothing else mattered in the world, not even my love for Bella.
That doesn’t make sense to me. How could this tiny creature who was trying to kill my Bella, be my imprint?
Shortly after her birth, we were out hunting and a rogue vampire set on vengeance on the Cullen’s went to the Volturi claiming they had created an immortal child. The Cullen’s got witnesses to come and see Renesmee for themselves, saying that the child grows and is not an immortal child.
This tiny child had me wrapped around her little fingers and I would give my own life to protect her from anyone, vampire, human, or shape-shifter alike. The Volturi came in to pass judgment and left empty handed. Aro saw everything that he needed to know that Renesmee was the product of the love shared between Bella and Edward.
Suddenly my thoughts were brought back to reality as I looked to see my Nessie cuddled up on my chest. Her curly red hair spilling over my chest, her sweet breath causing me to shiver and her swollen belly up close against me made me a very happy man. She was a magnificent creature and I have to admit I love her more than life itself.
As for the love I had for Bella, well we can just say that it has disappeared since Renesmee came into my life. I supposed to kill this girl, but when those eyes gazed upon me, I lost all control and knew I had to do anything and everything to protect her.
Bella is still a major part of my life, since I did marry her daughter. It’s kind of weird now calling her my mother-in-law, when all those years ago she was the center of my life. Now Nessie sits on the throne of my heart.
I guess fate has a way of twisting things around and giving you something you would have never expected. Here I thought I was destined to marry Isabella, but that didn’t work out. Instead I am married to her daughter. The one I would do anything for.
“You want me to fix you breakfast, Nessie?” I smiled down at her.
“No, I would rather go hunting. You think you’re up to it?” She whispered causing bumps to form on my stomach.
“No way you are hunting in your condition my love.” I placed my hand on her swollen belly.
“How do you expect me to eat, Mr. Black?” She giggled.
“I would bring dinner to you. That way you are not putting too much stress on our baby.” I kissed her forehead.
“Where’s the fun in that?” Her big eyes staring into mine and I was lost. I knew I was about to throw in the towel.
We got up from the comfort of the bed, dressed and was out the back door before you could say Boo.
I phased and began to chase the love of my life. Her giggles floating on the air made me happy.
‘Nessie, please be careful. I don’t want either of you hurt.’ I thought to her as I slid to a stop behind her form. She was on top of a mountain lion. Just like her father.
Have I ever needed someone so bad? The answer was yes. Ask me that now, and I will have to say, no. I am a happy man. I have a beautiful wife and a child on the way. Life could get no better than this.
Nessie’s pregnancy didn’t last very long and before we knew it, we were parents ourselves. We had a little boy, who I have to say looks just like me. William Daniel Black was our little bundle of joy. He has all the ladies in the family wrapped around his little fingers.
Ask me now if I have ever needed someone so bad. I will tell you that I have everything I ever needed and more. A loving family, a loyal pack, and friends who stand behind us.
Have you ever needed someone so bad that they were the only thing you could think about? Well, I have that problem. You see I fell hard for this girl and now she is getting married, leaving me behind with nothing, but a broken heart.
It started when we were younger. We used to make mud pies after the rain. She was everything I wanted in a girl. I wanted to ask her out, but she ended up going back home to Phoenix with her mother. That was the first of many more heartbreaks.
Some years later, she came back to live with her father. I had a feeling she wouldn’t remember our time together, but as for me, how could I forget?
Things seemed to be alright with her as she went to school in Forks, as for me I attended school on the rez, which now I really wished I could have transferred.
My thoughts were always about her and I think it was getting on my dads nerves. Luckily, I found out that a gang from the school was coming down to First Beach. My heart began to race as the thoughts of Bella came to my mind. Would she be here with them or just shy away, staying in an empty house, since Charlie was always on duty.
“You’re Isabella Swan, aren’t you?” I asked sounding goofy, of course she was.
“Just Bella.” She sighed. Man, she has truly grown up since the last time I saw her. Okay so now what do I do?
“I’m Jacob Black; you bought my dad’s truck.” Real smooth, Jake.
“You’re Billy’s son. I probably should remember you.” Her smile would light up the night sky.
We continued to talk until it started to rain and she left. Not sure I understood why, but I felt that she was going to begin a relationship with one of the Cullen kids. Second heartbreak.
~*~*~
My father paid me money to deliver a message to Bella regarding her new boyfriend. I did it, only so I could get the last part to finish my car. I went to her prom to talk to her. There she was in his arms. I walked over to where they were and asked if I could cut in.
Of course Cullen was a little hesitant to do it, but Bella asked him please. He moved out of the way, but didn’t go too far away. He stood with his back against the wall watching hard.
I explained everything that my father told me and she was like alright. Somehow I knew things were not going to change. Come to find out Charlie didn’t like Cullen at all. Just before prom, Bella went back to her mother’s and had an accident. How the hell did Cullen know about it? Simple, she says he wanted to talk to her about getting back together and that he was sorry. I say bullshit.
So now Charlie is watching him a little more closely. I really wanted to step in and ask Bella out, but I knew that would not happen, not with Cullen in the picture.
~*~*~
Have you ever needed someone so bad, yeah
Have you ever wanted someone
You just couldn't have
Did you ever try so hard
That your world just fell apart
Have you ever needed someone so bad
And you're the girl I gotta have
I gotta have you baby
Have you ever wanted someone
You just couldn't have
Did you ever try so hard
That your world just fell apart
Have you ever needed someone so bad
And you're the girl I gotta have
I gotta have you baby
Time went on and my heart wouldn’t stop hurting. I didn’t want to date anyone else; I thought she was the one. It turns out that fate always has its way in things. Just after summer break, something went wrong with Bella and Edward.
From what I was told, they went for a walk in the woods behind Bella’s house to talk. He said he was leaving and that she wasn’t going with him. He left her there in the middle of the woods, in the dark, alone. What kind of man would do that?
Sam Uley found her lying on the ground cold, wet, and mumbling about how he just left her. It broke my heart again to see her in that much pain.
Four long months of her life wasted as she just sat there waiting for his return. There was nothing I could do to help the situation.
Until she came to me one afternoon with two beat up bikes. She wanted me to fix them for us to have. This would be the start of something magical. I was finally going to get the girl in the end.
We were always together after school or on the weekends. Charlie said that I was making a big difference in her life. That is all that mattered to me, was helping her heal and maybe out of all of this, have that relationship I have always dreamed of.
We ended up going to the movies and became joined at the hip, which was alright with me. I was enjoying this time with her. She began to get color in her face again, her eyes held life in them and I knew it was because of me that was making this happen.
Things were working just fine between us, until I found out that I could phase into a huge russet color wolf. Then the stories were right, we were wolves and the Cullen’s were bloodsuckers. Nice.
She figured out what I was without me telling her. That was a relief. Until one night where she ended up breaking my heart again.
Bella decided to go cliff jumping without me and she almost drowned. I ended up saving her, but her pixie little bloodsucker thought she committed suicide. I took her back to her house where Alice was waiting for her.
She leaves with Alice to go to Italy to bring back that leech. I begged her not to go, but she was sure that if she went with Alice she would get him back. I was sick and tired of getting hurt.
There you go, midnight promises again
But they're broken by the dawn
You wanna go further, faster every day baby
But in the morning you'll be gone
And I'm alone
But they're broken by the dawn
You wanna go further, faster every day baby
But in the morning you'll be gone
And I'm alone
I didn’t come around much after that. Nor did she. Which was fine with me. I knew she would go back to him. But still, she was supposed to be mine. I loved her more than him. I would never hurt her and she knew that.
“Don’t make me choose.” Was all she could say. Fine! The hell with it all. I was done with it. Never again would I let her hurt me like this. Boy was I wrong.
~*~*~
Some lunatic vampire went on a rampage and started to create a newborn army, sent to get revenge on the Cullen family. Their prize, Bella. I put up walls around my heart to keep it from getting crushed again, but of course, she has her way of manipulating it.
While all of the planning was going on down in the clearing, the couple was up in the mountains talking about their upcoming wedding. I lost it. That was the blow that broke the camels back for the last time.
Edward came to find me, said that she needed to explain things to me. What the hell was there to explain. I heard it all.
“Jacob, I’m begging you. Stay with me.” She said.
I couldn’t fight it anymore, she had to know how I truly felt, even if she marries him.
“I love you Bella. I have always loved you. I know you love me too, but you just don’t know it.” This was going to hurt me for the rest of my life. How was I going to live without my Bells?
She just stood there, looking at the ground. "I do love you Jacob, just not that way." She mumbled.
“If only that was enough.” I sighed.
“Will you kiss me, Jacob?”
“You’re bluffing.”
“Kiss me, Jacob. Kiss me and then come back to me.”
I wrapped her in my arms and softly gave her what she wanted.
“That should have been our first kiss, better later than never.” I ran off to help with the upcoming battle.
Again this didn’t help my already patched up heart. I could feel the threads coming apart at the seams.
Why save your kisses for a rainy day
Baby let the moment take your heart away
Baby let the moment take your heart away
~*~*~
Time passed and their wedding was here. I was still running, but turned around to try to keep my promise.
Every dream I dream is like
Some Kinda rash 'n' reckless scene
To give out such crazy love
You must be some kinda drug
And if my time don't ever come
For me you're still the same
Damned if I don't, damned if I do
I gotta get a fix on you
Some Kinda rash 'n' reckless scene
To give out such crazy love
You must be some kinda drug
And if my time don't ever come
For me you're still the same
Damned if I don't, damned if I do
I gotta get a fix on you
I gave her the best wedding present ever. Me. Although that was short lived when the subject of honeymoon came up. I blew it big time and had to be escorted out of the reception. How could she even think of trying to have a ‘normal’ honeymoon with a leech? If he bites her, the treaty is over. There will be a war.
I tried really hard to forget her. It was no use. She was branded in my brain. There was no life after her. Here I sat while she was off on her honeymoon with a vampire. Life was totally unfair.
I went on with my life knowing that there was no one for me. No matter how hard I tried to find love, there was none. Until…
The birth of Renesmee, the daughter of that leech and Bella. I watched the whole thing unfold. This baby was sucking the life out of the one I loved, but yet as soon as she was born, it hit me. Nothing else mattered in the world, not even my love for Bella.
That doesn’t make sense to me. How could this tiny creature who was trying to kill my Bella, be my imprint?
Have you ever needed someone so bad, yeah
Have you ever wanted someone
You just couldn't have
Did you ever try so hard
That your world just fell apart
Have you ever needed someone so bad
And you're the girl I gotta have
I gotta have you baby
Have you ever wanted someone
You just couldn't have
Did you ever try so hard
That your world just fell apart
Have you ever needed someone so bad
And you're the girl I gotta have
I gotta have you baby
Shortly after her birth, we were out hunting and a rogue vampire set on vengeance on the Cullen’s went to the Volturi claiming they had created an immortal child. The Cullen’s got witnesses to come and see Renesmee for themselves, saying that the child grows and is not an immortal child.
This tiny child had me wrapped around her little fingers and I would give my own life to protect her from anyone, vampire, human, or shape-shifter alike. The Volturi came in to pass judgment and left empty handed. Aro saw everything that he needed to know that Renesmee was the product of the love shared between Bella and Edward.
Here I am, I'm in the wrong bed again
It's just a game I just can't win
There you are breathin' soft on my skin
Still you won't let me in
Have you ever needed someone so bad, yeah
Have you ever wanted someone
You just couldn't have
Did you ever try so hard
That your world just fell apart
Have you ever needed someone so bad
And you're the girl I gotta have
I gotta have you baby
Every dream I dream is like
Some Kinda rash 'n' reckless scene
To give out such crazy love
You must be some kinda drug
And if my time don't ever come
For me you're still the same
Damned if I don't, damned if I do
I gotta get a fix on you
It's just a game I just can't win
There you are breathin' soft on my skin
Still you won't let me in
Have you ever needed someone so bad, yeah
Have you ever wanted someone
You just couldn't have
Did you ever try so hard
That your world just fell apart
Have you ever needed someone so bad
And you're the girl I gotta have
I gotta have you baby
Every dream I dream is like
Some Kinda rash 'n' reckless scene
To give out such crazy love
You must be some kinda drug
And if my time don't ever come
For me you're still the same
Damned if I don't, damned if I do
I gotta get a fix on you
Suddenly my thoughts were brought back to reality as I looked to see my Nessie cuddled up on my chest. Her curly red hair spilling over my chest, her sweet breath causing me to shiver and her swollen belly up close against me made me a very happy man. She was a magnificent creature and I have to admit I love her more than life itself.
As for the love I had for Bella, well we can just say that it has disappeared since Renesmee came into my life. I supposed to kill this girl, but when those eyes gazed upon me, I lost all control and knew I had to do anything and everything to protect her.
Bella is still a major part of my life, since I did marry her daughter. It’s kind of weird now calling her my mother-in-law, when all those years ago she was the center of my life. Now Nessie sits on the throne of my heart.
I guess fate has a way of twisting things around and giving you something you would have never expected. Here I thought I was destined to marry Isabella, but that didn’t work out. Instead I am married to her daughter. The one I would do anything for.
“You want me to fix you breakfast, Nessie?” I smiled down at her.
“No, I would rather go hunting. You think you’re up to it?” She whispered causing bumps to form on my stomach.
“No way you are hunting in your condition my love.” I placed my hand on her swollen belly.
“How do you expect me to eat, Mr. Black?” She giggled.
“I would bring dinner to you. That way you are not putting too much stress on our baby.” I kissed her forehead.
“Where’s the fun in that?” Her big eyes staring into mine and I was lost. I knew I was about to throw in the towel.
We got up from the comfort of the bed, dressed and was out the back door before you could say Boo.
I phased and began to chase the love of my life. Her giggles floating on the air made me happy.
‘Nessie, please be careful. I don’t want either of you hurt.’ I thought to her as I slid to a stop behind her form. She was on top of a mountain lion. Just like her father.
Have I ever needed someone so bad? The answer was yes. Ask me that now, and I will have to say, no. I am a happy man. I have a beautiful wife and a child on the way. Life could get no better than this.
~*~*~*
Nessie’s pregnancy didn’t last very long and before we knew it, we were parents ourselves. We had a little boy, who I have to say looks just like me. William Daniel Black was our little bundle of joy. He has all the ladies in the family wrapped around his little fingers.
Ask me now if I have ever needed someone so bad. I will tell you that I have everything I ever needed and more. A loving family, a loyal pack, and friends who stand behind us.
