Importance is not in what we wear, not in how we do our makeup , not in the music we listen to or the places we go. Importance is in what we take for granted. Like trust, relying on someone, having people there, support of friends is something that we all need, but something that we don’t realise what it is like without, friends are like a security blanket and having people around you to talk to and share problems with is vital for getting you through bad situations, So what abut when that’s not there? Its not really something we think about and its these small things which make the huge difference .

Ever since I was about 11 I had one friend Emily (changed names for reasons) who I belived in my head would be a true friend to me for the rest of my life, We made some big choices together like secondary school, going from primary school to secondary school was a big deal back then, it made it easier having a best friend by your side. Maybe I was too dependant on one friend back then. But at the time it just seemed like we had a freindship that was so strong and I was unable to see past the problems in putting all your trust into one person.

Sure enough through secondary school I made other friends, but friendship groups change year after year until you settle into one set of friends who u keep through your school years. Let me tell you now, you will not be friends with all these people after school. Only a select few, maybe one, maybe none at all. I had other friends, sortof close to me, but week after week I remember spending all my weekends with ruby, litereally every single evening or day I seemed to be with her, even if we were with other people she was there aswell. I felt like I had fallen into a trap where I could not actually break free and if I was with other friends I was made to feel some guilt or like I was doing something wrong, even though in the back of my head I knew that what I was doing was perfectly normal. I was made to feel like a bad friend even though I knew that all I had ever done was be there for her.

Towards the end of secondary school things got worse. There were no longer separate little groups of friends, all the girls joind into one large group of about 12. Now I know this seems great to have a massive group of friend, but really it isn’t, you cant help but think every time your not around your being spoke about in a bad way, or slagged off, its just a constant worry. (Im aware this may not be the case in all schools by the way im just telling you my experience.) Things got worse and worse it and ended up like I just felt I was hanging around with all these girls because I had to.

Everyone in the group actually looked quite alike and we seemed to all be like clones, Dark brown died hair, fake tan, lots of makeup, we wer like a big group of dolls, most probably hated and repulsing everyone around us, but when your sucked into the group you don’t realise it.

Despite looking all the same, a lot of us were very different . In the group theres always the type of girl , The leader / leaders - The girl whos opinion everyone will follow even if they disagree, others in the group will worship the ground they walk on and believe that everything they do is right. They will also go out of their way to try and sit next to them and always be with the leaders. There were a couple of these I my group, they make out they are not the bitchy ones and the think they are more mature, but they are the worst.

You also get the quiet girls - the ones who have long term boyfreinds so tend to not get dragged into the bitchy battle but sit back and also have their little input and say into every situation. There were about 2 of these and they would spend most of their days sitting on the phone to their boyfreinds or talking about problems that were completely irrelevant to us until were were sick of hearing their boyfriends name , and practically hated them already before we had even met them.

Theres also the depressing one- the one who always has a problem and thinks theres something wrong with them all the time, also known as an attention seeker. They belive that the world is actually against them and that someone is always out to get them. These people you cant even look at without them having a panick attack or start a riot. They tend to cry a lot or feel sorry for themselves 24 hours a day, you cant say a bad word to these people and have to tread on eggshells around them to avoid any emotional outbursts or awkward tension.

Leaving school wasn’t a long process like I had expected, there were not tears like I had thought, it sounds heartless but I was not going to miss the worry and constant battle between girls. I thought this would change after I had left school but little did I know this whole battle had only just got started.